Once again I snatch defeat from the jaws of victory!

Alright this is the saddest loss I think I’ve had all year.  Click this link to see the pgn of the game.  As you go through it, don’t get confused I actually have white.  I just manage to blow the game out my ass that badly.  This is not boding well for the Tourney in Tucson tomorrow.  I’m not too bummed, but there is something I’m missing, I don’t know if it’s confidence, killer instinct or if I just don’t know how to win or what the hell my problem is.  I must meditate.  I’ve done over 1000 problems this week, worked on my endgames and done a little opening prep work against the Sicilian.  I will not think about chess until tomorrow evening at 7:00pm.  Ok I will probably be thinking about chess on the drive over, but not again until then.

I’ll post an update on the tourney when I get back.  Chessloser said he’s buying me a drink tomorrow so at least I have that going for me